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i m leaving lj for now .... [21 Nov 2002|02:47pm] im leaving for now live journal .. im sorry ill be back soon ithink .. if i dont get sent away from my house ill miss u guys u guys are rad .. pray fro me guys i love u bye ... till i dont know when... karla bye... **hate life** 5 blood drops | hit me with your best shot

[17 Nov 2002|05:07pm] life has been horrible terrible its not my fault bella... its not my fault so dont blame it on me u can hate me but its not my fault so anyway life has been horrible terrible i hate things inthis world ive given up on everything ppl in my life that matter right now are ebie and chris there nice pppl and i heart them a lot thats it that i can say that actually care for me . im iss my old life.... i miss u guys i havent talk ed to u in forever and im sorry ive had a lot of problems i dont have alife anymore its just a thing i live in while i wait to die.... my life ends here hit me with your best shot

[13 Nov 2002|02:36pm] 187 i hate crystal :) love u bye 1 blood drop | hit me with your best shot

[24 Oct 2002|09:14pm] IM SHOOTING MYSELF WITH A SHOTGUN IM SHOOTING MYSELF WITH A SHOTGUN.... BANG BANG .. IM DEAD BANG BANG.... im dead! 1 blood drop | hit me with your best shot

[20 Oct 2002|08:31pm] -Went to work with mom -Sewed my new pants -Thought how i wanna go to homecoming -Went to church -hung out with mel,angie,bina,bella,opie,brit.....esc. -ate at mcdz -took mel and angie home -now im dead........ hit me with your best shot

[30 Sep 2002|04:31pm] [ mood | blank ] yo . me and bella made up i hope she feels better but i know her life is touph sometimes i wanna say im sorry .. but sometimes we think that lifes just liek that and i wish i could do something to make her life go great but i cant i would fuck up mine for her. and she knows sometiems i wish i had guy when i saw hot guys at the show i was so oh yea! i want u but ihad no guts man... i feel dum everytime i go to a hardcore show no grls ever go with me angies taken now and she doesnt have time for me jk jk shes great still sucks dick u know the usual hah well anyway im a loser ... i think i may cut my hair I DONT GIVE A FUCK IM GOING TO HOMECOMING SOMEONE FIND ME A HOT GUY TO GO WITH PLEASE? Which Avril Lavigne Song Are You? I DONT GIVE A FUCK IM GOING TO HOMECOMING SOMEONE FIND ME A HOT GUY TO GO WITH PLEASE? DATE? DIE? DATE? DIE?! 2 blood drops | hit me with your best shot

love monsters ink [25 Sep 2002|05:17pm] [ mood | hopeful ] [ music | underoath-letting go of tonight ] today at school there was a fight it was so scary this guy jp that me and anna kinda know was standing in line some guy cut in line and he told him what the fuck the guy turned around and punched him in the face he fell back bleeding his head hit the floor giving him a concosion .. then he started twitching like a seizure it was so horrible i coudnt take it .. it suxed . when he was shaking one of his teeth came out there was blood everywhere the ambulance came for him i will pray for him to be allright .... damb those kids that try to be touph but they will find out who it is .. i cant believe ppl were lauphing about that thats horrible and not funni! it upset me well tom is picture day and guys whos gonna look like shit runed over twice ..! me man.! i have nothing to write about oh ok heres something mosters ink is the best movie ! its like soooooooooo whoa .. .. ouch shes so cute 2 blood drops | hit me with your best shot

yo yo .... blah..... sexoxo? [22 Sep 2002|03:59pm] today i went to work and then i am here hot as hell im going out with angie its gonna be great im gonna invite her to eat than were going to mass than hanging out again! its gonna be great! yo be jelouse yo!im seeing bella today! wohoo i miss her and love her so much... peace.. with much love everyone tell me one thing that makes them happy... 2 blood drops | hit me with your best shot

yo.... [15 Sep 2002|09:45pm] this world is full of nothingness i need a date for homecoming ... 3 blood drops | hit me with your best shot

[12 Sep 2002|03:22pm] guys tom. is scars of tommorow and u dont understand i need to go i mena i NEED to because i just do i love them i dont have a ride its in new port does anyone love me enouph to take me ? i swear i will pay u if u have room for 3 in ure car pleasssseeeeee call me and tell me if u could (562) 8063858 please!!!!!!!!! ....... i need to go..... or i will get scars but on my wrist hit me with your best shot

i wish...... [10 Sep 2002|08:12pm] i wish bella felt better w/o her i think i will go nuts i wish i never loose bella out of my sight i rather be blind i wish life wasnt the way it is i wish good thigns happen to good ppl i wish i was him.. ni wish i had someone to i wish that sean iwatchedyouburn hah will be my date for scars i wish i dance at the show and ot get hurt i wish i was bella i wish i wasnt myself i wish i was perfect i wish my family wouldnt go through this shit i wish angie comes with me i wish bobby does too i wish i find a boy toy at the show hah i wish i could be nice.... i wish i could suck ure dick haha ohhhhh came up haha .......... i love angie and bella! ther the best yo yo ~ love u ladies.. bella ill catch u can u sleep as the sound hits your ears one at a time unspoken balance here the bridge for so many years that i should stare at receivers two receivers isnt fair dont worry ill catch u dont ever worry your arms in mine anytime .... wouldnt trade anything your still my everything to my surprise for my eyes you were right dont worry ill catch you dont worry ill catch you dont ever worry you brought the world onto me i can see everyhting everything.......remembering. dont worry ill catch you .. dont ever worry..... no need for reminding your still all that matters to me! i lvoe u bella from 2 years old to now your love will never leave my heart! 2 blood drops | hit me with your best shot

[06 Sep 2002|10:02pm] yo yo . im at schooo peace sexoxo 1 blood drop | hit me with your best shot

i whole bunch of nothing [23 Aug 2002|07:50pm] [ mood | anxious ] [ music | le tigre * phanta ] ive been doing a bunch of nothing ... havent gone out i have to go shopping richards taking me i need to buy creepers go to daisys i ditched ben today because my mom was being a weirdo here comes school ... blah! time to see those ppl that u hate.... but im over it i need to make my purse already im gonna get my fabric for it tom. i work tom. get payed on sun. yes! i need to die my hair because it looks booty anyway im so bored ... i miss bella... i miss kristen but kristen doesnt call. i hope she likes her eye being open im happy for her! and him. i miss drums i miss my "band haha" we neeed to practice i have to have a seroius convo with them.and i will yo im out....... tah tah........ 4 blood drops | hit me with your best shot

[21 Aug 2002|03:42pm] all u elite 5 stop looking through my shit u nosy bitches go to hell you dumb whores! now im putting my chet on private listen i let u guys stoped talkign shit but why dont u guys just stop bbeing such whores hahah well losers get a life and quit looking at my stuff ..... I HATE U 7 blood drops | hit me with your best shot

[20 Aug 2002|09:35pm] [ mood | sick ] [ music | le tigre ] i miss bella more than i can even ever miss myself i miss her friendship i hate all the things that stand between us but well never be split up shes such a great person she always helped me realize things arent as bad as i thought they were and that as much as much as i hated my parents that i loved them and they loved me and that someday things will get better i miss her hugs her smiles and her cries i miss everything about her today i cried out of nowhere because i havent seen her and i have no one that helps me as much as her you cant find someone as perfect as her i miss the times that i dont talk to her for two days and we see or talk to eachother and i get this exitment my heart of happiness i miss my best mexican friend i miss god... ..... i pusshed him away i said i hated him for the things he gave me in life but to think he was the most imporant thing in my life...... i drove! this is the car i wanna get i have worked so much im so sick and tired ........................ 3 blood drops | hit me with your best shot

[19 Aug 2002|03:49pm] well im going to uptown whittier to daisys and yea i got payed so im ready to spend haha ive realized ive worked Alot! anyway im going with ben i talked to joey yest. hes the best its hard to find great guys friends like him anyway bellas friend chris is really tight and smart anyway he helped me out with some of my problems so if he reads this thanx! haha well im a loser i work a lot and dont go out only with joey ben and gaby because ..... there cool! haha i miss bella and kristen there so great! haha i hope they miss me i think im off now........... tah tah......... 1 blood drop | hit me with your best shot

hey guys its been tons of fun1 [16 Aug 2002|07:34pm] [ mood | cheerful ] [ music | IVE GOT HOES! ] .. hey guys im a mean quizine touph cosmitalegin machine .. wow look at the hair dyed it and cut it! .. hes such a hottie my brother hes 12 who wants to date him?? eHH .. ha loooook at us! well its been fun lately i went to hollywood on a train yest. with gaby and joey it was fun there fun ppl but i hate how at the end everyones always is all bumed and im still hyper anyway .... thanx guys i think** im cutting my hair and dying it black! wohooooo xoxo caca** im going to the movies today with my bro and his friends hah its gonna be tons of F.U.N I GOT PAYED TODAY! YEA 2 blood drops | hit me with your best shot

blah [12 Aug 2002|06:17pm] [ mood | exhausted ] [ music | le tigre ] LETS KEEP IT ROCKIN KIDS POST ME COMMENTS! im better it was just a faze u guys were great thought~~~~~!!!!! Another day passes by. Another attempt at love. Remains unrequited. Why do I even bother? I should have learned from the past. I am but a statue. Impervious to love. This punctured heart is mine. Becomes a handful of dust. Dust. Hope has now wilted away. Wilted. Along with these dreams. That became emptiness. A final exit becomes clear. I am self destructive. A product of this solitude. I am riddled with shards. One simple wish now dies. Was my request so great? One simple wish now dies [x3]. Was my request so great? Once again I drown in its denial. Was it so complicated? Once again. I've been. Spit upon. Taken with a grain of salt. My life is gone 4 blood drops | hit me with your best shot

ahh.... im just gonna deal with it [10 Aug 2002|05:34pm] [ mood | bitchy ] [ music | o my god !!!!!!! im so pissed for nothing. ] i always say im tired of life and i complain about it but now i realize i have nothing to complain about its all my fault my parents hate me because of me i only have two friends i have no one in my life to keep my happy and it makes me happy when my friends tell me nice things today my friend found out this guy liked her and me and her always had this thing was when we closed one eye that means we had no bf haha anyway she told me today"i dont wanna open my eye without you" and i wanted to cry because that was sweet and im so glad to have her and bella bella is such a big part of my life i talk to her for only a short amount of time and i feel like were drifting and thats not good cause shes my very swell friend and im gonna miss her shes going camping ... i hate how i have this life that i cant do anything about if i wanna fix something i cant .. i see how great bella is with everyone and it gets me so jelouse because shes such a grl girl with so many friends im not good with meeting new ppl and everyone thinks im a bitch i get the most 4 comments a week and bella gets like 40 man shes so greaT! and relationships ohhhh weeeee im such a wimp ive been hurt too much by jerks to think of me dating someone for a long time .... and i feel so low of my looks i mean .. i saw thesse grls today and they were so pretty and i looked at myself and im so.... yucky im just ME! man im such a bitch .... i wish i ...... just....... started all over in my life and i .............. CANT! IF YOU THINK SUMMER SUXED POST ME A COMMENT AND TELL ME WHY 11 blood drops | hit me with your best shot

[09 Aug 2002|01:39pm] kristen were are u ..... ure in hollywood with frankie were supoose to go to static call me ....... xox hit me with your best shot

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